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Howard Buten: When I Was Five I Killed Myself

I was waiting for Popeye who comes after the News. [...] But The News wouldn't end.
My dad was watching it. I had my hands over my ears because I am afraid of the News.

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He stared at me for a long time then. He tried to smile at me. He tried and tried. I saw him trying. It made me sad. Dr Nevele was trying so hard to smile at me. He didn't know how.

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I woke up and everything was different. Outside was drizzling and I looked at it and thought, Nothing is the same now.

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My mom told me that someday when I was grown up I would love somebody and it would mean I would want to stop everyone from hurting her. I used to think it was Shrubs. But it wasn't. It was Jessica.

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