Howard Buten: When I Was Five I Killed Myself
I was waiting for Popeye who comes after the News. [...] But The News wouldn't
He stared at me for a long time then. He tried to smile at me. He tried and tried.
I saw him trying. It made me sad. Dr Nevele was trying so hard to smile at me. He
didn't know how.
I woke up and everything was different. Outside was drizzling and I looked at it
and thought, Nothing is the same now.
My mom told me that someday when I was grown up I would love somebody and
it would mean I would want to stop everyone from hurting her. I used to think it was
Shrubs. But it wasn't. It was Jessica.